Hello, I'm Ryan

Ryan Heller is a writer and art director living in Fort Lauderdale, Florida. He recently completed King of Stars, an inspiring memoir about his journey with addiction, sexuality and growing up. Ryan writes regularly for his blog TwelveOneFive, which centers around themes of recovery, acceptance, identity and that stuff we call ‘being human’.

About the book

An inspiring memoir by Ryan Heller, King of Stars is the journey of a young boy balancing worlds of light and dark as he discovers himself by losing himself along the way. A modern coming of age story, King of Stars shines light on the uncomfortable. On situations often left hidden in shadow. A raw and honest account of sexual identity, addiction and growing up.

It is a voice for anyone who is searching, hiding, or standing still.

Those invisible monsters that still creep in shadow.
We share the dark, each in search of our own light.

-King of Stars

TwelveOneFive Blog

TwelveOneFive is a blog about that stuff we call ‘being human’. Stories of transformation and hope, stories of loss and fear. It’s about the good days and the growth days, the light and the dark.
But most of all, TwelveOneFive is honest, it is raw, and it proves we are never alone.

Recent Posts

The Dismemberment Plan
March 18, 2020

Kelsey Burns takes her place center stage amidst an auditorium of red velvet chairs. Vacant. But nonetheless, hers. Her theatre. Her spotlight. House lights cast a dreamless view of empty seats, an amber glow against a sea of red—one row after another after another. The girl perpetually cast in a supporting role, somehow forgettable…

February 6, 2019

It’s 4:42 am. I’ve been up since 2 am. My brain is a washing machine of everything I think I want to do with my life, everything I am doing with my life, and everything I always wished I’d done with my life. I Google some stuff, read some stuff, put down the phone and…